my most controversial piece, "my pain", was finally taken down, to my great dismay. as unfair as i think it is, im tired of being associated with it. and maybe i will start being recognized as an actual artist now, as opposed to some cutter with a camera.

so, im posting a lot of nude photos right now, because...i dont really know. i draw the female form enough. peoples bodies are just so wonderful. and its theraputic to mine self to take photos of my body, even thoguh i dont love it all the time.

my muscles ache and i want to cover my body in paint. my pants are half off and the meds havent been in my system for at least a week.

"most men and women lead lives at the worst so painful, at the best so monotonous, poor and nlimited that the urge to escape, the longing to transcend themselves if only for a few moments, is and has always been one of the principal appetites of the soul."
-aldous huxley

he was talking about drugs (mescaline), i like to think its about escaping reality through art and its form. lets stop being so bored and tired. lets break out of these confines and tear it up!

i got a set of watercolor pens and i ive been using them like mad. its been great. trying to push myself to work hard on my art. but to also remember to let it flow.

recently i posted a photograph that depicts scars and self mutilation. it was my way of showing myself, and others that what i do, and what art is, isn't always this pretty picture. and maybe you could paint/draw something dark and harrowing. but this is real. this is something that affects so many teen AND adults. its not just about silly little emo kids in ninth grade making chicken scratches on their arms for attention. this is about REAL people's REAL pain. and i feel like others should be able to deal with it. why? because thats what life is. and thats what art is.