sorry to hear all this that is happening to you,, just from my own experience this will go by. hope all clears for you soon. here is a little saying that i picked up from a book called the (The New Earth) and it seems to help me when i am down,

Every thing takes time yet it is always now?

try not to think too much of the past and don't worry too much of the future, live in the present
bye for now
elliott

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Our fears is a darkroom where all are negatives are developed!
All i want from tomorrow is to get it better than today?
bye for now
elliott
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